9/22/2014 5:57 PM CST Update for all parties involved:
The Vet Visit imgur.com/a/JL3PeHere you guys go! This is the after shots / proof of purchases and ledgers for where all the money went (including savings it hurt so badly). The grand total of everything (Including the new food to help) was 250.69$ which was about 100$ more than what I had on hand. -slowly lays on side- however, I do have good news, well, somewhat good news. It's more like 'almost good but could definitely be worse' news.So far they took two X-rays, one from her right side, and one on her back (the poor thing was just complacent as ever, a ragdoll if I ever saw one), and revealed that even though she had thrown up a rather large amount of rubber band, they weren't sure if they could see if there was more. It apparently is the exact same density as her intestines were, so they could only see a small packet of her intestines were wound up / coiled pretty tight. They're hoping that it's just from her expelling the chunk but at the same time it could be that she still has some in there. We're going to see if she throws up again and again with the new food we got - it's a mixture of Holistic pro-digestive wet and dry food so she can still eat and still not throw it up all over the place or at least manage to keep some of it down. It's also high in fiber, as well as putting in some Laxatone (A hairball / lubricant mixture) to ease the rest of it out. She apparently had some fecal matter in her colon ready to come out as it was so here's hoping that everything will work out on it's own. If we don't see anything we're going to go back to the vet in about a week or so to see what we should do then. That'll be another 221$ most likely as he suggested instead of jumping into surgery (shriek) we get contrasting x-rays or just send the ones they have now to a radiologist to see if they can help. Exploratory surgery is a huge thing for me and I don't think I'd be able to pay for it AT ALL but if I have to I will. On top of that my computer is garbage again. It's crashing like crazy with windows explorer.exe so I've managed to find my serial key again to just put the damn thing out of it's misery and reboot windows all together. I'm going to clear out this partition sometime tomorrow or something because I am so literally drained right now. Emotionally, financially, and physically drained beyond belief. I just want to thank all of you guys for helping me out so much. You're all great and fantastic and I hope all of you have a great day.
9/22/2014 10:18 AM CST Update for all parties involved:
I awoke this morning to find out from my grandmother that Lily had, once again, vomited and this time it had been pretty nasty. However, when we did go to see exactly what it was, we found out why she had been so sick for so long.
(Warning, images in the album are not for the feint of heart. There is cat gack / vomit in this photo. Album will be updated with ledger, receipts, and other proof of purchases for the donations and bills.)This
was inside of her stomach the entire time. The highlighter is not included in what she scarfed out, it's mostly there for size referencing considering how LARGE this item is just, oh my god.
She not only had a giant hairball (For her size) wrapped around this giant rubber band piece, but she had been trying to throw up this rubber band for the last week or two. These rubber bands are used to keep trash bags tight around the bins whenever food is tossed in or items like bottles and garbage, and we hadn't been able to find one of them that was for the smaller bin in my room. I personally assumed it'd been vacuumed up or thrown away with the rest of the trash due to the fact that at the time most of it had been brittle and was falling apart, but apparently Lily took it upon herself to eat the one part of it that was still rubber and springy. These rubber bands, when slack, are about 12-13 inches long, that's about a foot if not slightly more, so because we only found this segment this morning, we're going to take her to the vet to make doubly sure that there's nothing else still inside of her.
We're going to be taking her to the vet around 12pm so they won't be out to lunch and we can make sure that she's not going to throw up anything else / I have the funds needed (It will probably require some sort of X-ray and those are well into the higher price range that I know is going to hurt my funds that I have in my savings as well as take all of the commission and donation money that I received the last day or so, I can't thank you guys enough for all of your help with this). Also a not-cat related, but somewhat personal update:
I have a Mac Book Pro (2012) hybrid computer laptop. It runs bootcamp with my main operating system being Windows 7 Professional. This means that Microsoft will not touch the laptop itself because it's a Mac, and Mac will not provide software support because the software is Windows / Microsoft related. I've tried taking a previous hybrid to a Mac store a year or two prior to receiving this laptop and they refused to offer any support even if it was under the Applecare Warranty. This one's warranty ran out three months ago, and from what I understand it could not be renewed. With that in mind, here's what happened shortly after I posted my journal about Lily.
My computer had been giving me the explorer.exe error where everytime you right clicked on the desktop or inside the explorer window for documents, downloads, libraries etc, it would freeze up and restart, making the bottom start and menu bars completely disappear and me unable to do anything at all including linking others to items they had purchased through dropbox since breakfast time. At first a restart/reboot was enough to fix it, but after the second or third time it started revealing itself to be far more of a problem than I had anticipated. I was unable to even use Ctrl+alt+delete to restart my laptop or open the task manager. Even trying to use the chkdsk was impossible as I could not click on the start menu option to use the Cmd Prompt and run.
My processor was fine, the performance was at neutral levels when I did get the task bar up, but for some reason explorer.exe just would not cooperate. I spent hours scouring google trying to find some sort of technical support about the issue, and all of it was computer jargon that went so far over my head that I knew if I got into the registry I would screw everything up. I downloaded shellviewer.exe to see if perhaps one of the new updates or something had caused the issue (NVIDA is known for having terrible shell interfacing with their updates with the GeoForce control panel and such, so I disabled those with the program, even downloaded whatishang to see what could probably be stalling my system but was unable to read it / understand what the program was telling me in the end.) and to disable those shells or other .dlls that were unnecessary to pinpoint if it was a virus or not.
This started at 8:25 AM CST on Sunday morning.
I was given a serial to malwarebyte premium edition around 12am CST that evening to run a virus scan and quarantine (Not delete as I don't know if the files are actually corrupt or just unknown to the computer itself) files that were unknown and possibly malware.
It wasn't until 3:30am CST Monday morning I was able to fix the issue to the point I could remove all files, references for commissions and the like onto my external hard drive and begin the process of scanning, setting up restore points, and possibly gathering all the information that I could from my computer to save it. I will probably have to get another laptop to replace this one, as the other laptop I have is not art friendly (It's older, the monoprice drivers are extremely finicky on it, and the laptop itself is huge and cumbersome) and is extremely hot to the touch after a very short amount of time. Luckily, prior to Lily's incident, I was able to purchase a high power aluminum fan that, with this laptop that is on as often as it is, has proven it's merit to keep it from getting any worse.
So after all of the vetbills and groceries are taken care of, I'm going to start taking on more cash commissions to get a new tablet pc 2 in 1 so I can get better support (Tech wise) from professionals and have proper warranties that last up to, if not over 3+ years. We're looking into the Microsoft Surface Pro 2 right now (grandfather is willing to make the initial purchase while I pay him back over time which means monthly installments of whatever I can afford so I'll be more proactive here most likely) that's in the higher end because we have to go through amazon (Still cheaper than dealing with Microsoft itself) because of payment plan options for him as well. Apparently this entire matter with Lily AND my computer deciding to crap itself at the exact same time put him in such a state of guilt (I quote, "If you didn't have bad
luck, you wouldn't have any.") that he wants to make up everything to me. We'll see how it goes and how long it'll take, but if I can get the tablet PC that I need, I'll be able to be FAR more active here.
I don't want a Cintaq Companion, even if it has more Pressure sensitivity and the like, it's got too many charger issues that they have no intention of fixing just yet. Wacom digitizer pens are actually sold with the surface pro, so I should be able to do just as good of work there as I do elsewhere as well. I still have my external, too so I'm not exceptionally worried about that.
So... My cat Lily will not stop throwing up. No matter what we do, no matter what kind of kibble we give her, she throws it up immediately. She won't stop eating it super fast and she throws up. Not only that, right now, after the food's been up out of her reach for hours, she just horked up all over my room lots of white fluid.
I'm afraid because my grandmother refuses to listen to me and not drop her pills all over the floor and not pick them up because she can't be bothered to clean up her own messes, one of my cats has managed to get one and it's one of the white pills, which means it could be killing her. I don't know what all my grandmother takes, I know she has diabetes medication, her heart medication, and a bunch of useless vitamins she pretends are working to help make her feel better (I find cinnamon capsules burst open on my floor all the time, it stains my carpet and it looks like one area has a murder)
Because it's Sunday, I can't take her anywhere. If I took her to the emergency clinic, my grandfather would refuse because he took the only vehicle we have. It's bad enough my cousin is here bringing up all sorts of scary as hell situations that have put me in a panic attack because he likes thinking of scenarios to how she'd die since I caught him stealing from me the last few years.
Not only that, I don't really have the money to take her to a vet, but I have to if I don't want them to put her down like they did Tinker in February. I just literally fought with my grandfather about it because of the obvious resentment they had for the cat and how much they would just do bare minimum and wanted the poor thing to die. They're stubborn and never listen to me. I told them what we should do, but I could never raise the funds or get them to help me with it to do it, so she basically starved to death and died after all of her teeth fell out and her kidneys just failed her. She was part Siamese so she had the larger head and we had to use wet food.
My family wanted her gone, really, they liked her as a convenience when she was laying on them, but otherwise she was nothing but a burden to them and they made sure that she knew it.
Not only that, my mother broke her car again so they took my truck to her so she could drive it - I have to ride with one of them if I take Lily anywhere now, so I'll have to get an earful about how much I spend on the cats and blah de blah because I pay for just about everything for myself. Had I known that Lily was going to get sick, I wouldn't have purchased anything and pushed for commissions or something more so I could have more funds. No one's buying my resells, which are listed here
which could pay for at least a third if not more of whatever costs I might have for this.
I love Lily, she and Beau are my life, the only things in my life that give me physical contact every day and morning, that unconditionally love me and make me feel loved in this hell hole of a house, and she's in pain and throwing up like crazy and I'm scared they'll kill her, too and I can't handle that and I don't know what to do. I don't have much money at all, just enough for my bills for the next few months, I haven't heard back from any of my jobs, I can't really ask for more commissions because I owe so much to the point that doing free art puts me in a guilt trip, even if it's just to make myself feel better or because I'm inspired. I have a back log of art that I haven't finished or touched of my own because I feel so terrible.
I don't know what to do; I hate asking for donations to cover the vet costs but I have really no choice right now. I don't know how much it'll be, the last visit was around 375$ when I took them to get flea prevention and worm medication, but the medicine was cheap/they weren't groomed or anything. They'll need their shots updated, and most likely dewormer again or something, I don't know, the vets out here like to try and get as much done in one shot as possible.
I guess all I can do is ask for help. I need these guys to function - if I had the money to be properly diagnosed by a shrink to have the damn paperwork, I'd already have them certified as service animals. I've had people witness to how much they literally mean to me (The world, quite literally they're on the same level as my closest friends and family) and I am unable to function when away from them too long due to severe panic attacks and anxiety.
I have a paypal debit card, so whatever's sent to Paypal is literally immediately available for me.
If you would like to donate, please contact me via note, and I will share my paypal with you! The donation button on paypal requires a word-for-word exact address match for billing, even with the credit card only option, and it won't work! It's only worked once out of all the times I've managed to make it (Five buttons now) and so I would ask that you send the donation as the following -
Services > No shipping Required
Fill out your username (Do not mention what website you are from, just a name will do) in the note on the paypal website itself.
I want to compensate everyone but I can't do it if donations are under 20$. I just can't, I'll have too much on my plate to refund every 2$ amount.
I don't know how much it'll be, and if I receive far more than I need, I will refund donations that are over what's necessary back to the donation givers - I don't want to hold onto cash under any false pretenses and I don't want people to think I'm begging for free money.
I'm so emotionally drained right now, just, ugh, this is turning out into a mess.
Feel free to ignore this journal if you think I'm just asking for handouts or if you have something nasty to say about it, I really can't deal with that right now thanks to the panic attack my cousin has put me through (I hate him so much I wish he'd grow up already) and want absolutely no drama at all. I will hide and block anyone who starts that.
And before anyone says 'why don't you get a job?' I'm going to go ahead and say don't bother, because I've been trying and have six applications I was supposed to drop off tomorrow but now can't because my mother can't do anything for herself and demands my grandparents take care of everything for her.